I am a bumbling fool. You must be thinking, "shocker!"
Yeah yeah. Well, it has just occurred to me I've become my worst nightmare - I'm just like Keira! Ha ha ha. I'm talking about being just like Keira in the movie-way (don't let her tough exterior fool you, she's *THE* biggest pussycat).
Tonight was "Fools Rush In." Come on now, a romantic comedy several years old and so predictable I could have written it myself with my hands tied behind my back. However, there she is at the end having the baby and I found myself a crying, snotting, weeping mess. Well, a happy mess :).
It occurred to me that I've become that sensitive, raw, emotional woman that cries when she watches movies at night when no one is around. So much for the tough exterior - the truth is coming out! The other night it was "Dragonfly."
Per my previous entry, I've been thinking all day about my "Top 6 of 2003" list. I should have added a disclaimer for those who don't already know - not all the items on the list are memorable in the happiest sense of the word. The summer of 2003 is forever engrained, scarred, on the unfolding fairy tale I live. Some person at some time once said that everyone has a top 5 list of turning points over the course of a lifetime. I had one when I was 20 - a strength I didn't know was mine took me to Sweden. The next one was summer of 2003 - a strength I didn't know I had centered my heart and my soul.
Brilliant! What I do with the fruits of my gathering will play out as surely as I am not going to work tomorrow ;). Only time can unfold a destiny and fate that's already mine. Guess it's not so bad being the girl who cries at movies...